It has been about 3 and half weeks on bedrest and I will say that this is one of the most difficult things I have had to do. We have entered viability, which is the magic word you wait to hear from the Doctor. Now, God forbid we have to deliver the hospital will try and save our preemie, any time before that the baby goes to hospice as too young to survive. This is why I waited to start my blog until now.
I hope that you will follow along and help keep me entertained during this trip. It is a hard adjustment on my family and I hope when it is all over and they look into their brother's eyes they will truly understand the sacrifice.
As for Gilbert, he struggles day to day to try and be sure to meet every one's needs. With a family as large as ours, you can imagine how hard that is. The first week or two was rough for him, but he seems to gaining more patience day to day. I know he is tired, because it is a lot of work, but again, when he looks into his son's eyes it will all be worth the trouble.
A quick understanding of how I managed to land on bedrest. In April of 2009 we lost a baby girl (Kimberly Grace) at 4 months pregnant, due to what they call "Incompetent Cervix". My body just did not hold her in and she game out to early. In this pregnancy I had what is called a "Cervical Cerclage" to strengthen my cervix at 13 weeks pregnant. All has been okay until about 21 weeks when my cervix seemed to be getting dangerously short. At 22 weeks we were measuring at .88cm when a normal cervix would be around 3.5cm. The condition I have is a painless dilation of the cervix, so there is not much warning that you are dilating and preparing to go into labor. This makes you a candidate for preterm delivery. That is the short version.
It is very hard to watch my family from a distance and hear all the commotion. I am working from my bed on my laptop during the week, which is stressful. It is so hard for the little ones to understand. My "soon to be 5 year old" amazes me as he understands so much more then I give him credit for. He already talks to his baby brother! Today he told him "When you come out, I will take you to Chuckie Cheese in your car seat."
I will hopefully entertain you with funny stories, need your encouragement during the bad days and keep you posted through the next 10 to 12 weeks. (Please tell me that sounds like a short time to you, because it sounds like forever to me)
Say your prayers for Baby Boy Wagner and our family.
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